Making friends is a hard thing for me. On the surface I trust people very fast, but to make real connections takes a lot of time for me. I have only a few friends, my socializing happens at work and with my boyfriend, basically. I have a friend from childhood, who I talk with, and a new friend with whom I am connected only on the internet. But we write a lot, I feel like she’s getting to be a real friend of mine.
I had some bad experience with people who were close to me. They tend to disappear when my mental health gets bad. To be honest, that time, I really don’t want to see anybody. But would be great to catch up after that. If it happens again, I will tell the people close to me to give me some time and space. And after I get better I would like to continue with them.
I would like to get to know my boyfriend’s friends better. They are very helpful and all that stuff, but I couldn’t get closer to them yet. The distance also doesn’t help. I came to realize that maybe the main problem is that they communicate everyday, and I am not involved to that. So when we meet I don’t know almost anything that they were talking about in the past months. It is hard to connect that way.
I should do something about it. But what?
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