Yesterday I met some acquaintances, and the relationship topic came up. We talked about romantic relationships. It is an interesting topic for me, I should deal with it more wisely.
First, I am single. So that is the default position. (My ex broke up with me in 2024.) Let’s start from the beginning. I have always wanted a boyfriend (or a husband – but nowadays a boyfriend definitely). I just wanted to be loved I guess. There is an expression for the people you don’t do it in a healthy way, I read it from a Hungarian psychiatrist, it goes something like a love slut (or slut of love?). Anyway this person would do anything to feel loved. I think I am that kind of person. But now I will change. I don’t like the world try, so just put it this way: I WILL change. By the way I have to change a lot, first, I have been doing this for cca 2 weeks, I am practicing self love. Being nice to yourself is really important. I have been writing a journal almost every evening. On one hand trying to be more conscious, on the other doing some spontaneous sht I shouldn’t.
What should I change about this topic? I think I shouldn’t search love at all for a while. I have already deleted Tinder and the other apps. But you know there are also Facebook groups and other stuff. Anyway I will focus my energy on other activities, for example writing. I’ve always wanted to write a book. Still want it. So I take a pen and a piece of paper and write these goals.
Activities from today:
– Self love (talk to me nicely, accept myself, be affectionate)
– Journaling
– Spend time with THE book, my future book:)
– Connection with friends, brother
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