And here it comes! The end of 2023. One day left (and some plus hours). I have a diary with some summary questions – let’s dive into it.
1) Health.
I feel good, maybe a bit tired. The question is, how much are you satisfied with the state of your health? (and a bunch of other questions – but I chose this one) So. I think it is quite good, only one thing should be better. I can get panic attacks among a lot of people. But I think it is more than that. It is also connected with other stuff. Anyway it needs work on it.
2) Personal growth.
I really try to fit others. I think I improved a lot, but not enough. I avoid conflicts. Need more attempt.
3) Family/friends/relationship.
I think there is a lot of toxicity in my family. I don’t wan to get involved in it. So I make boundaries, try to keep the distance. I don’t have many friends, but I am to keep them. My boyfriend is a really nice guy, I am a lucky person to have him. Although we have some problems, trying to solve them.
4) Creativity.
I saw a kurzgesagt video about making habits. I would like to try it with writing. It says that everybody has a planner and a toddler in themselves. The planner makes routines and the toddler makes habits. I would like to write more, I need to make it a habit.
5) Soul.
I care for my inner peace.
6) Close environment.
A bit messy, should be dealt more with.
7) Studies/work/money.
Don’t wanna write about it.
8) Entertainment and charging.
Should do more.
I had three bigger goals this year. Lose weight, learn programming and develop our relationship. Well it is a tough nut to crack. My weight was like a yo-yo. I really hate the topic. I should make something really differently, because this year only made it worse. I lost weight, then gained, and my confidence and self-love is really low right now. Programming. I learnt a lot, but it was too much. In the past 3-4 weeks I skipped it. It was too hard. Relationship. I think we are on our way – learnt a lot about each other, and ourselves.
First of all I’d like to say that I tend to see the bad part of things. Now I feel like this year sucked because of the result of my first two goals. But I think I just need a different point of view. We moved in together to a rented apartment with my boyfriend. I have a job. I learnt a lot, HTML, CSS, JavaScript, a little other stuff. And I have a lot of experience with things. I learnt a lot about myself, and Bence, our relationship. I know that going to the gym is not my thing. I know that full stack is interesting but a really hard stuff to learn. So it will take more time. The biggest opponent is time. I just want everything right now. Sometimes I feel like a child. It is hard to believe that we have time. Sometimes I feel like only here and now. I would like to begin meditation again.
So bye bye 2023.
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